What ever happened to living life to the fullest

In the past few months I have begun to notice changes in the way I live my life. There are a number of factors that have impacted on this including the increase in work at Tafe, Woolworths constantly screwing me around and the much needed time spent with the girlfriend.

A year ago I was a party animal, single and loving it. I liked nothing more than going out and getting pissed every saturday night and not caring about the repercussions it had on me. How life can change. I am not saying that having a girlfriend is a bad thing just that I have toned down on being too much of a party animal (Just covering my arse here hails).

It has been months since I went out and got ridiculously drunk and had an absolute fantastic night and it is something that I miss dearly.

Well this is going to change. This being the year of my 21st birthday (which is going to be huge) I have decided to try and start living life to the fullest once again (perhaps I should team up with party borgas for a good time hey Matt).

The other fact is that midway through this year I will finish my Tafe course and get my diploma in Children's Services. Therefore around July I will start my 9 months off before I can go to Uni. This means one thing, PARTY. I will be living it up over this period and enjoying some much deserved freedom. I will also be planning my 21st extravaganza.

So buckle your seat belts and hold on because this year is going to be one wild ride.





















An artists impression of me in a good night out, either that or this is me in hell.

Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece?

No one is every sure of what the future holds for them. People make decisions everyday that effect the course of the rest of their lives.

So how I ask you do we know that we are doing the right things with our lives. So many decisions in life not knowing what are right and what are wrong.

Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed-interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that?

(Ewan McGregor - Trainspotting)

I often doubt some of my decisions in life. There are lot's of things I want to do but I will never get the chance to do them. Take for instance the career path I am taking, sometimes I wonder whether it is what I really want to do, I don't think I will enjoy it as much as some other career paths, but having gone so far and done a lot of the work it seems pointless to give it all away now.

Music is my true passion and I sometimes wonder whether I am wasting my talent in this area.

A song written by one of my favourite bands questions life and decisions,


Oh brother I can’t, I can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you 'cause I don't know what to do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and I wanna talk to you
Oh I wanna talk to you

You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or a write a song nobody has sung or do
Something that's never been done

Are you lost or incomplete?
Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece?
Tell me how do you feel?
Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak
And they’re talking it to me

So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or a write a song nobody has sung or do
Something that's never been done, do
Something that's never been done

So you don't know where you're going and you wanna talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all, let's talk Let's talk, let's talk, let's talk

(Coldplay - Talk)

Time to say goodbye is not always enough

The end of life is something that every human being has in commmon at some stage in their life whether it is a 7 year old boy killed in a car accident or a 98 year old woman whose heart finally gives up. The thing about it is that no one knows when their time is up and we are constantly living in fear as to when our time is up.

One day you can be as fit and as healthy as you every were and the next day you have a sore shoulder, you go to the doctor who tells you you have 12 months to live and 2 months later you are being buried with family and friends wondering how you could fall so fast.

About a month ago my pop was diagnosed with liver cancer and about 3 to 6 months to live. Now I am not saying he hasn't had a bad run because at 84 he has lived the life he has wanted. However it is hard to take in that someone who had such a huge part in my growing up will not be around forever. I mean I knew that eventually my pop would die but you never expected it to happen, and when it does you begin to regret not spending the time with them that you wanted to.

As of late I have been going down to see him and my nanna as often as possible while he is still able to hold communication and give out hugs that bring back my childhood. I know that soon it will be over for him however it is still hard to let go of the people who had a huge impact on the person and the morals that I hold today.

Death is something that I have faced too many times in my life especially when having no recollection of the person who brought me into the world. I mean it does mean that I don't show any feeling towards my mother because I never knew her, but I wish that I had the chance to get to know her as her son. Instead I am told by family how much I remind them of her and what she was like. The way I have the same laugh and the same joy for life as she did. So I guess in a sense I am like a replacement for her. Now I am not saying I am ungrateful for the mother I do have because I am not, I am just saying that I wish I had th chance to sit down and talk to my mother and get to know and see what people tell me about her.

My pop is begining to forget things and repeat questions, but instead of being angry I just answer them again and again so that he doesn't feel like he is doing anything wrong. It is hard to see the man who lifted me onto his shoulders as a toddler and let me sit on his lap to steer the car into the garage unable to move around easily.

All I can say is that life goes on and sooner rather than later he will be gone. All I aim to do is spend as much time with him as possible until that day arrives.

Do we really have to go, the little man on the bike just came on

Well I am back from my holiday in the sunny Gol Coast or should I say the not so sunny Gold Coast due to the bad weather. It was 42 degrees here in adelaide while it was raining in Surfers Paradise (go figure). Perhaps the sunshine coast would be better next time due to the fact the fact claims it is sunny.

Anyway much fun was had over the seven days, a lot of shopping, lot's of sight seeing and many theme parks. I am really tired.

I got to catch up with my cousin Claire and her partner Adam which was god and they showed us around before we went and stayed at our apartment for 5 days.

Well I let the pictures tell the rest of the story, I took about 370 of them so no I won't be putting them all on.















The start of our holiday this is down at Coolangatta at one of the best surfing spots in Australia
















The view across to Surfers Paradise from Coolangatta (The tall building in the middle is Q1 the tallest residential apartment building in the world)
















My cousins partner Adam cooking a good old aussie barby out the front of their house
















View from our apartment in Surfers Paradise (one street away from the main hive of surfers)





















The Q1 building (72 floors)





















Views north from the Q1 building





















Views south from the Q1 building
















Condom Kingdom (one of the many quality shops in the heart of Surfers Paradise)
















At seaworld the resident dugong (how cool are they)
















Oh a nice happy snap (this was us waiting for the seal show to start)
















One of the many pictures of the seal show
















A polar bear having a fun time playing with an empty water container
















A nice view from the sky carrage at seaworld





















Warner Brothers Movieworld (it may look nice but it pissed down with rain for most of the day)





















Hailey and her new man (aarrrgggggggghhh an ogre, well if thats what turns you on love)





















Some wonderful weather we are having, huh.





















Me hanging out with my boys
















Police acadamey stunt show (who doesn't like to see things explode)





















The new superman ride (0-100km in 2 sec) Weather shut it down for the day, but I would have gone on it if it hadn't be, sure no problem, well maybe anyway. (100ft high)
















Wet and wild was the highlight for me (I love water parks) this was us at the end of mammoth falls.
















Mammoth falls (soooooo much fun)
















A couple more of the water slides all of which I went on, the twister on the left was insane and very fast.

















Our favourite slide the 8 way racer (adam seen far right won everytime due to the fact he went before the green light, hence the 0 above him disqualified)

All in all it was a good trip, I may post some more photos at a later date but I think this will do for now.

Let's go away for awhile

Well this will be my last post until next Sunday due to the fact that I will be in the sunny Gold Coast until then. But don't worry I will have lot's of tales to tell and pictures for you to look at. So then what are the aims for this holiday of mine well let's look at them.

• Go to all the theme parks, go on some wicked rides (superman ride), get some pictures with my most loved cartoon characters, and some of the cool dolphins and killer whale at seaworld.
• Do lot's of shopping and buy lot's of cool stuff (don't know what yet but whatever takes my fancy)
• Checkout the nightlife and some hot night spot's (maybe some strip clubs if hailey let's me, hehehe just kidding)
• Spend heaps of time at the beach and the pool at the apartments (check out the form, hopefully hails won't notice, hehehe)
• Catch up with my cousin and do lot's of stuff with her
• Enjoy the views and other attractions
• Take advantage of the fact that we have foxtel in our apartment (I am very deprived at home)

I will have heaps of photos for when I come back and look forward to the trip, let's just hope the plane doesn't crash or something (damn terrorists).

Have a good week all.

Leave all your worries that fuck you up.

It occured to me this morning while sorting all my important info and receipts into a folder (instead of crammed into the draw in my desk) that I have been working at woolworths way too long.

I came to this conclusion when I discovered hundreds of pay slips from the store I love to hate going back to late 2002 (around the time that I started working for the company as a nieve little school boy).

Also the fact that my locker at work is crammed full of pay slips from the better part of this year because I became extremely lazy and couldn't be bothered bringing them home. The other thing that worries me is that half of them I haven't even opened so I have no idea what I have been payed for over the past 6 months. All I know is that some amount of money does get put into my account weekly because my bank account stay's around the same mark.

On another note it is only 3 more sleeps before I head off to the sunny and humid Gold Coast for a week. I went shopping yesterday to get some much needed essentials for the trip including a few pairs of 15 dollar boardies from target. Considering the weather over there I will probably only be wearing boardies and shirts for the whole trip.

This also leads me to the difference between acceptable clothing in Adelaide and the Gold Coast. I mean here you usually need to be well clothed if you go out anywhere and you need to wear pants shoes and a shirt of reasonable quality to get into any pubs or clubs.

Now over in Queensland you can walk around in boardies and thongs and go anywhere you like. What's the deal I mean just because it is a popular holiday location people can walk around wearing practically nothing and get away with it. I mean I don't feel comfortable walking around like that and I will probably look well dressed to everyone over there and look like a bit of a misfit. Oh well I am not changing for them.

And here is yet another installment of,

Ceppy's Compilation of composition's (top ten songs at the moment)

10. Howie Day (In the sun)

9. Jamiroquai (Don't, give hate a chance)

8. Jamiroquai (Seven days in sunny June)

7. Pendulum (Hold your colour)

6. Martin Solveig (Everybody)

5. Silosonic (Something to make you feel alright)

4. Wolfmother (Mind's eye)

3. Pendulum (Slam)

2. Dave Matthews Band, weekend on the rocks (Hunger for the great light)

1. Dave Matthews Band, weekend on the rocks (The stone)

There's a few knew songs from the last one and a few of the same, I'll see how I feel in a couple of weeks to see if there are many changes.

All's well that end's well.

Rich people aren't all stuck up, are they?

Last night I went round to Tristans house for a swim and a feed. Although it was a cool night the pool was nice and warm and enjoyed by all who dared to enter it. Getting out was the only bad bit due to the freezing breeze.

We then went down the road to a house that Tristan was looking after for a few days while the people who owned it were away.

Now this house was quite magnificent with a nice front garden and pool out the back. They had just recently extended the house on the back of the older stlye of house. Now upon walking into this place I was quite taken by the size and space, along with all the hi tech equipment and multiple bathrooms. The couch was about 3 metres in length and in front of us was a 5,000 dollar plasma screen. The kitchen was large and spacious with a trap door in the middle that led down to the wine cellar. Sensor lights in the kitchen lit up when we walked into the pantry which in itself was the size of any normal houses kitchen.

There where three bedrooms the kids sharing one bathroom and the parents having their bed against a wall which you could walk around to enter into their bathroom. The bathroom was fitted with two showers two basins and two toilets and the walk in shower which was the size of any normal houses bathroom had a clear window that looked into a small garden just for the purpose of looking at it while showering.

Hailey and the rest of us proceeded to look through everything in the house, we found many things including a mouse with nun-chucks that moved around and sung Kung Fu Fighting.

We stayed and watched their big T.V and listened to their surround sound and made ourselves at home eating chips and pop corn on their 10,000 dollar sofa.

For a night I knew what it was like to be rich and have everything. Tristan assured us that the people who lived there were very nice and not stuck up snobs. One day I might walk by and say they have a nice house inside and out before running off with them having no idea who I am and why I know about their house, hehehehe.

Doctors can be such dicks

Okay I just got back from the doctor due to the puffyness of my eyes (seriously they would act as an airbag if I was in a car accident). I went in there and told him that I had an eye infection i.e. conjunctivitis, He then proceeded to examine my eyes and tell me that I had an eye irratation and that perhaps it was an allergy.

Now I do get a bit of hayfever but from time to time and upon telling him this he said that it looked more like an allergy rather than an infection.

Now I am not a medical expert, however I have had an eye infection before and know the symptoms and what it looks like, and this doctor is telling me that I have allergies.

I then proceeded to tell him that I think it might be an infection because there was mucus coming out and that I probably caught it from Hailey's brother. He looked at me, ignored what I said completely, and went on to tell me that I needed antihistimin eyedrops and some telfast.

Now I could have gone to the pharmacy and got this without having to go the doctor and spend 60 bucks just to walk in the door. I didn't even need a prescription.

I fucking hate it when doctors give a wrong diagnosis and come up with something that makes no sense. Believe me this is not the first time this has happened. I went to the doctor in year 11 with a bad cough, he gave me a puffer and said I had asthma. Well the puffer did absolutely fuck all and a week later I was in hospital with bacterial pnemonia. What a complete fuck head. Let's just say neither me nor my parents were too impressed.

I wish doctors would actually listen to their patients more rather than pulling stuff out of there arse and handing out puffers like candy. All I can say is that these eyedrops had better work. I am sure they will because even these eyedrops should clear out an infection. If there is no improvement in 24 hours I will not be a happy man.

Fucking outrageous

Arrrrrggggghhh, my eyes, my eyes

Okay I to have sucumbed to the eye infection know as conjunctivitis and like borgas I think I know who is responsible. Hailey's little brother Mac. I am sitting at my computer writing about this looking through sore red hazy eyes due to all the mucus that is building up in them. My eyeballs are actually acheing.

Everytime I look in the mirror I am faced with Darth Maul. Hopefully I can get some eye drops for them tomorrow and it will be gone in a few days.

In just over a week I will be on my way to the sunny Gold Coast for a nice holiday. Everything is in order and I can't wait to get over there and relax for a week. I will be sure to post some pictures of the many fun times I'll be having over there.

And now something I haven't done for awhile it is

Ceppy's Compilation of composition's (top ten songs at the moment)

10. Pyramid (Wolfmother)

9. Who did you think I was (John Mayer Trio)

8. Talk (Coldplay)

7. Thrill is gone (Bernard Fanning)

6. Hunger for the great light (Dave Matthews Band, weekend on the rocks)

5. Not finished just yet (Bernard Fanning)

4. Mind's eye (Wolfmother)

3. Hold your colour (Pendulum)

2. Slam (Pendulum)

1. Time of the season (Dave Matthews Band, weekend on the rocks)

There it is my top ten songs for the moment, might change tomorrow, who knows?

The end of another year, the start of a fresh

So here we are the first day of 2006, the start of a new and wonderful year full of endless possiblities. Yeah sure it is. I mean lets face it this is the start of another year which will probably be harder than the last year.

Of course there are things to look forward to in the coming year. So instead of looking back on this previous year which in all honesty was not the best year of my life I am going to look forward at what is to come this year.

Top 10 things I am looking forward to this year.

• Going to the Gold Coast for a week
• The U2 concert in March
• Finishing Tafe in July (about fucking time)
• Applying at University and with luck getting into teaching at Magill
• Quitting Woolworths when I have time off and working at OHSC full time
• Getting my drivers liscence (Wait, what? are you serious)
• 9 months holidays once I've finished Tafe (going to be good fun)
• The release of the X Box 360, and me purchasing it
• My 21st Birthday (there is going to be a huge party)
• Going to see Coldplay in July (going to be the highlight of the year for me I think)

I am also looking forward to spending some time with my friends, and my beautiful girlfriend over the next year.

So onto last night and New Years celebration.

The night began with a swim in Timmys pool which was ridiculously warm (I think warmer than out of the water). This was followed by sitting and drinking the Keg until other arrived. We ate food and continued to drink.

Now I got many pictures however my camera ran out of batteries before the good time were had. Basically, Nick, Sean, Tommy and Borgas went around to a Med party held down the road from Timmy's house and spent most of the night there. They were all dragged into the pool (nick fully clothed of course) This is where they stayed for most of the night and they all hooked up with some random 'ugly' chicks. So I here, I did however see these ladies and wasn't too impressed but at least you had a good time boys.

Just after midnight, Borgas did what he is now famous for. He stripped down to his boxers and grabbed a cricket bat and a beer and ran down Cross Roads saluting cars with his bat and yelling happy new year. Later on Borgas emerged from across the road at the other party in his boxers, soaking wet with an orange fanta helmet on which he had no idea where he got (good times).

Well that was the higlights for this New Years Eve and I think good times were had by all.